voyager1beeran

If I had discovered this thread a month ago, I’d say everything is fine. Heck, even better than it was pre-covid. But it isn’t. Have you guys ever had a situation where a friend or a loved one tells you that you’re going off the deep end, and then at that moment you snap out of whatever you’re doing, only to realize how close you’ve come to the edge? I’ve had a thing like that happen to me.

When covid hit I was one of the first to lose my job. The company I worked in was producing car parts and one day we literally ran out of resources. First, the factory floor people got sacked, then the rest of us got the notice. So I went home and started looking for another gig. That turned into a struggle. Depression got to me, and I’ve found my escape in gaming. Got stuck on CS:GO for a good while. The thrill of opening cases and getting rare skins was the only time I’ve felt good in a day.

Anyways, long story short, a good friend of mine comes over one day, and he tells me I’ve got a gambling problem. At first, I thought he was legit crazy, but then he shows me this https://www.nodepositdaily.com/features/differences-between-gambling-and-gaming/ , and it all clicks. I’ve been spending a lot of money that I don’t have, on things that don’t matter. My job search was going nowhere, and I was stuck. The realization of how messed up I was felt like someone woke me up from a lucid dream. I’m better now, but I don’t want to experience anything like that ever again.